5-14-21 Surrender and Control

I am an expert in relinquishing control. And even more of an expert at taking it right back because I am a control freak who thinks she can somehow control the outcomes of her efforts if I just obsess over it enough. Until I come to to that point where I am physically, mentally, and spiritual exhausted from trying to force things and do it all on my own - then, through tears of frustration and defeat - I finally relinquish control to the one who was actually in control the entire time. Uggg. Please tell me I am not alone@